First, I want to say I'm sorry if my words offended anyone. I truly mean it. I am sorry. I am sorry. Can't say it enough times. I'm a bigger person than that, but sometimes we lose our cool, and let others get the best of us. I don't like being that way, but I did.
There is no excuse for some of what I said. PERIOD! Again, I apologize. I was very, very, very upset and pissed to say the least.
Someone did something we all do.....except they continued to "justify", "make excuses" for their actions. Once is acceptable; Twice is not a coincidence. It's a pattern that is starting to develop. I'm not going into detail. It's over. I had my bourbon. I feel better. But as a man, or woman, you are only as good as YOUR word.
They are still trying to "justify" their actions, and only offered an apology. I've heard a million apologies and I know when someone is being sincere. When I do something wrong, not only do I admit I was wrong, I, as a Good Catholic man (try to be. Don't hold that against me), try to make it right or better somehow. That's just me. I know you can never undo what has been done, but if you keep doing the same WRONG thing, then it gets harder to forgive. I forgive this person. It's not worth my time and energy to go backwards and dwell on the past and waste energy that way. It's simply a waste of time and energy. I have WAY BIGGER things in life to be upset about, INCLUDING what I have done to others in the past. I can't undo that. But as an older adult, I know that you can....TRY..... to make it better. You don't need to tell anyone that you're trying to make it right or better, I just go do it cause it's the right thing to do. You can ask for forgiveness later. I don't need others approval. My God knows what's in my heart when I'm doing what I'm doing, right or wrong. I don't need to appeal to ANYONE on this planet really. Just the man who looks after me, and he knows the real truth behind my actions. That's all that really matters to me. If I have his blessing, then I know my fellow man is not being burdened by my actions. But it takes a big person to admit they were wrong and their faults. We all have them, including myself. I was blessed by my God to do just about anything I wanted to. Sports, medicine, technology, you name it. There really isn't anything I can't do. Might not be as fast, as pretty, as efficient, as strong as some others, but I can do anything. But I know my limitations also, so I won't tell someone "I will........or.......I can....." without knowing I won't go back on my WORD. That's just me. I've grown a lot from a younger man who screwed a lot of people over as a teenage punk/young adult. That still lives with me now as an older adult that has so much potential still. I am embarrassed and ashamed at what I did as a teenager and young adult. Not pretty. Never killed anyone. Almost. That little voice inside my head stopped me less than a second away from it happening. I thank my mother for dragging me by the hand as a kid to church EVERY week. It paid off.
I am not perfect. We all make mistakes. I get it. Jesus forgave, but trust me, he never forgot. Lesson learned. I'm an intelligent person who does a lot of dumb things because I am blessed with abilities and brains that not everyone has and I push the limits. I'm the guy who says, "if you're not living on the edge...you're taking up way too much *%^&*#@ space"! 😂 😂 Yes, so move aside for us. 😂 We like the edge. Life is beautiful and I want to see and taste it all. I've tried my best to take the biggest bite out of life. It has come with setbacks though. Time to take a page out of the old playbook and learn from mine, and some of my closest, and not so close, friends/associates in life. I do register those lessons. Live and learn...the best way. You can read how to be a Dr. out of a book, but until you go and do your first "real" (not on a frog or squirrel) surgery/operation on a real human being, does it hit you. It's a battle. Same thing in combat. The first kill is the hardest. It's not easy when that's your "job". I empathize and sympathize with all my brothers. Some handle things better than others. That's what training is for. To better prepare you for whatever "battle" you may be dealing with in life. All of life's experience's are learning lessons if you pay attention. Good, or bad. Learn from them. That's all we got. Someone had to be the first to........fly a plane, sky dive, scuba dive, go to the moon........etc., etc., etc. They were willing to sacrifice it all for 10 seconds of glory. Sometimes it pays off. Sometimes you lose everything......including your's and other live's. Is it worth it? That's a question we all will have to answer and one day we all will. Sorry for being so philosophical, but sometimes people can relate to different things in different ways that others wouldn't understand.
Bottom line, I apologize for my actions/words that got away from me. Everyone on this forum seems to be pretty cool if you ask me. They've helped me TREMENDOUSLY. I would not have got this far, this quick without a lot of you's. Thank you. I do appreciate it. I don't like that some of my worst came out of me tonight in a moment of rage. My bad. I am sorry.
I apologize to everyone.....even the other person. I will contact them and let them know this also. I'm just not sure they are the same person as me. Sorry doesn't cut it for me at this point. There was no excuse for their actions. I know their sorry. I heard so.
There is no excuse for some of what I said. PERIOD! Again, I apologize. I was very, very, very upset and pissed to say the least.
Someone did something we all do.....except they continued to "justify", "make excuses" for their actions. Once is acceptable; Twice is not a coincidence. It's a pattern that is starting to develop. I'm not going into detail. It's over. I had my bourbon. I feel better. But as a man, or woman, you are only as good as YOUR word.
They are still trying to "justify" their actions, and only offered an apology. I've heard a million apologies and I know when someone is being sincere. When I do something wrong, not only do I admit I was wrong, I, as a Good Catholic man (try to be. Don't hold that against me), try to make it right or better somehow. That's just me. I know you can never undo what has been done, but if you keep doing the same WRONG thing, then it gets harder to forgive. I forgive this person. It's not worth my time and energy to go backwards and dwell on the past and waste energy that way. It's simply a waste of time and energy. I have WAY BIGGER things in life to be upset about, INCLUDING what I have done to others in the past. I can't undo that. But as an older adult, I know that you can....TRY..... to make it better. You don't need to tell anyone that you're trying to make it right or better, I just go do it cause it's the right thing to do. You can ask for forgiveness later. I don't need others approval. My God knows what's in my heart when I'm doing what I'm doing, right or wrong. I don't need to appeal to ANYONE on this planet really. Just the man who looks after me, and he knows the real truth behind my actions. That's all that really matters to me. If I have his blessing, then I know my fellow man is not being burdened by my actions. But it takes a big person to admit they were wrong and their faults. We all have them, including myself. I was blessed by my God to do just about anything I wanted to. Sports, medicine, technology, you name it. There really isn't anything I can't do. Might not be as fast, as pretty, as efficient, as strong as some others, but I can do anything. But I know my limitations also, so I won't tell someone "I will........or.......I can....." without knowing I won't go back on my WORD. That's just me. I've grown a lot from a younger man who screwed a lot of people over as a teenage punk/young adult. That still lives with me now as an older adult that has so much potential still. I am embarrassed and ashamed at what I did as a teenager and young adult. Not pretty. Never killed anyone. Almost. That little voice inside my head stopped me less than a second away from it happening. I thank my mother for dragging me by the hand as a kid to church EVERY week. It paid off.
I am not perfect. We all make mistakes. I get it. Jesus forgave, but trust me, he never forgot. Lesson learned. I'm an intelligent person who does a lot of dumb things because I am blessed with abilities and brains that not everyone has and I push the limits. I'm the guy who says, "if you're not living on the edge...you're taking up way too much *%^&*#@ space"! 😂 😂 Yes, so move aside for us. 😂 We like the edge. Life is beautiful and I want to see and taste it all. I've tried my best to take the biggest bite out of life. It has come with setbacks though. Time to take a page out of the old playbook and learn from mine, and some of my closest, and not so close, friends/associates in life. I do register those lessons. Live and learn...the best way. You can read how to be a Dr. out of a book, but until you go and do your first "real" (not on a frog or squirrel) surgery/operation on a real human being, does it hit you. It's a battle. Same thing in combat. The first kill is the hardest. It's not easy when that's your "job". I empathize and sympathize with all my brothers. Some handle things better than others. That's what training is for. To better prepare you for whatever "battle" you may be dealing with in life. All of life's experience's are learning lessons if you pay attention. Good, or bad. Learn from them. That's all we got. Someone had to be the first to........fly a plane, sky dive, scuba dive, go to the moon........etc., etc., etc. They were willing to sacrifice it all for 10 seconds of glory. Sometimes it pays off. Sometimes you lose everything......including your's and other live's. Is it worth it? That's a question we all will have to answer and one day we all will. Sorry for being so philosophical, but sometimes people can relate to different things in different ways that others wouldn't understand.
Bottom line, I apologize for my actions/words that got away from me. Everyone on this forum seems to be pretty cool if you ask me. They've helped me TREMENDOUSLY. I would not have got this far, this quick without a lot of you's. Thank you. I do appreciate it. I don't like that some of my worst came out of me tonight in a moment of rage. My bad. I am sorry.
I apologize to everyone.....even the other person. I will contact them and let them know this also. I'm just not sure they are the same person as me. Sorry doesn't cut it for me at this point. There was no excuse for their actions. I know their sorry. I heard so.
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